come for the week
you can sleep in my bed
and pass through my life
like a dream through my head
it will be easy
all i have for the moment is
a song to pass the time
a melody to keep me
from worrying

--bright eyes

"Isn't that all any of us really want? Someone to hang out with until we drop dead?"
Gilmore Girls

Tears

I wake up choking on grief that can't be mine
I must have soaked up everyone else's hurt
that must be what's streaming down my face
it can't all be from you

This frozen pain and longing and missing
that still clings to my insides
shivering in my wasted heart
ever since your life wove itself into mine

I first tasted them that morning
when the sky was gray with goodbye
you kissed me until you saw them beading on my eyelids
then patiently held me when you realized
no shoulder, sleeve or Kleenex would make them stop

I blinked them away that afternoon
I swore I'd have to forget you
and went for a walk along the river
throwing into the current
all the things you couldn't possibly have said to me

They blinded me that night I watched you
swallow the castles I'd built in the sky
each time you threw your head back
I could feel that ache that is you
and boy was your face red

I just want to start out this year
with less tears and more laughter
especially when it comes to you
at least you got lost in all this with me
I could see it when I caught your eye
in that look which tells me you do, too